Saturday, April 29, 2006

Here and now

A completely contrary feeling from writing a diary.....
Diary - you dont want anyone to read it and still you write it thinking - what if someone reads it!
Here the feeling is - I am writing, but what if no one reads it!!

Anyway, I never thought of what happened to all the diaries I wrote, on and off for many years, and I wont think of what happens to this blog.

I am getting married on 18th May - thats under 3 weeks from today!
You try to manage so many things and still so many things are unmanageable.
I did some "India shopping" today. I wanted to get some things for my nieces and nephews, but I have lost count of them. Not that there are many, but I dont know how many.....of what age, if they even know me!
About my cousins too - I cant imagine what they would like, what are the latest trends.
People change with time.
I have lost touch with my near and dear ones.
I dont think I can manage another 31/2 years of hiatus from my day to day world - atleast till last 5 years.

Sid told me about some time back and encouraged me to be a member.
I thought - having avoided any kind of community for last 5 years, why should I become a part of one?
Out of shear boredom and a need to get my mind out of all things marriage, I finally decided to give it a try.
I found some old freinds and found some new ones.
It kind of epitomised my beloved "american thinking" - keeping in touch and still not getting involved. It has a cool feature of seeing who visited ur profile and while chasing an unknown person who visited my blog, I stumbled upon her blogspot and the long buried, ignored, ridiculed, unpersued urge to write forced herself back.

I dont know what is a blog, or what to write there.
But I think thats good.
I can create my own world here.
Something like John Galt created in "Atlas Shrugged"!

But for here and now, hop in and be prepared for a different ride.